I miss her, too.

I have really been struggling with missing Michael lately. There is so much in front of me without him. The irony is, I wish I could turn to him right now. So many decisions. So many to-do’s. I’m so confused and lost.

I’ve been looking through photos of us. The one that everyone has seen, the one below, is on my bedroom dresser mirror and I see it many, many times a day. I was looking at it last night. I miss him so much. And in that moment I realized, I miss her too.

I miss them.

They’re both dead. 😢

This couple; they were a force. They got shit done. They worked their asses off their entire too-short lives. They did a lot of good together. They were a perfect fit for one another. They lived humbly and didn’t ask for or require much. They were happy. They loved the life they chose.

I miss everything about him but I didn’t realize how much I miss her too. I miss her humor and her edge. I miss her thick skin. I miss her wit, her resourcefulness, her confidence.

In her place is someone I don’t understand yet. Living a life I don’t quite recognize.

I miss him. But damn. I miss her, too.

I guess I just needed to share.

Peace,

~ Lisa

6 thoughts on “I miss her, too.

  1. The comment immediately above really says it all, and all I will add is this quote … hugs to you …

    “The reality is that you will grieve forever. You will not ‘get over’ the loss of a loved one; you will learn to live with it. You will heal and you will rebuild yourself around the loss you have suffered. You will be whole again but you will never be the same.”
    ~ Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

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  2. Much love to you Lisa, death as in life makes us sometimes not recognize the person we once were, as that person is forever changed. Yet deep down somewhere rooted in a far away piece of our soul a new metamorphosis is shaping who we are to become. Keeping some of the old as it intertwines the new, that will eventually become you and then you will recognize that person in the mirror.

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  3. I am so sorry that these two beautiful people are no more. Perhaps one of them will “carry” the other until a new one will appear even stronger than before. Their love is eternal. Love never dies. I send you hugs and understanding. And I’m sorry.

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